Was there a natural and easy going birth (Venus, Sun)? Forceps (Scorpio)? C-section (Chiron/Virgo)? Many drugs (Neptune)?
Regardless of what actually ‘may have been’ back then, it is our experience that counts.
What was on the horizon at the exact time can point to OUR EXPERIENCE of what was. It was our immediate perception of our surroundings that caused us to ‘act’ or ‘react’.
Some of us may have felt how wonderfully tender Mum’s arms were and how beautiful her face was. Some of us have Venus rising and somehow everything around us at the first moment of life, was beautiful – including us – and seeing things with a rosy tint ends up serving us well.
Some other of us may have felt as if the soft comfortable, warm and constant nourishment that has been our birthright was suddenly taken away in an instant. Why!???!! (Cancer Rising/Moon in 1st?).
Then there’s some of us that felt like coming into life was the most serious and tumultuous of struggles, but – we made it through and survived (an example of Scorpio or Rising – forceps or loss of air often a feature).
Some of us had both Jupiter and Sun on the horizon at birth. “Hello world, I felt as if we’d be meeting again soon! Oh how I love the way life constantly gives me incredible guidance, adventure and surprises and someone always ends up having my back.’
Some of us have Saturn, where we learned early to be equipped with the ability to pause and not show our emotions – our vulnerability. We felt we had to constrict. This ends up teaching one to constantly do things right and maintain order – ‘or else’, instigated by a loud and invasive conscience.
Some of us had a strong Pluto featured, where we learnt to be eternally vigilant to safeguard our being or we would be taken over by the strength of other’s forceful power and our whole sense of self would be lost.
Some of us have some of the chaotic Centaurs (Pholus, Nessus), where our earliest days taught us that nothing is stable, nothing is forever, change is constant, and perhaps constantly look forward to the next experience.
And so on and so fourth.
The imprints on our consciousness in our first days and months forever marks how we learn to deal and safeguard our sense of what’s most important to us individually. These imprints are at the core of the mask we wear daily – what we wear and also how we filter conditions on the outside. Our perceptions can be far off the objective reality however that’s not how masks work. They are not transparent nor do they convey perfectly what lies beneath.
This is why the first house is commonly linked to the ‘ego’. It is where ‘we’ meet ‘the world’.
The imprints of voices coming from the inside over time appear to be necessary for our survival, our happiness, cause a life free of pain or suffering. However ironically, these internalised voices are what continues to create those conditions of pain and suffering or isolation, as it ultimately perceives situations that are expected.
So in terms of future growth, it comes down to three things;
Firstly knowing our reactions that we still have to this day, come from our experiences that we’ve had (until this day). These experiences are a mix of what we have ‘put out there’ through patterns of behaviour and how we have reacted. No one can hurt us, harm us, like us, unless we have acted in a certain way that we are conscious of, or not.
Secondly, becoming more aware that we are no longer infants. We can choose what type of friends we want, what circumstances we want to be in, and ultimately how we get through life. Manipulation doesn’t serve us well so changing ourselves is just changing our masks, but dropping the shield over time can only bring in the people that suit us best, even if this takes a little while…
And thirdly, to be aware that often how we act is an inbuilt mechanism asking for a steady supply of learning curves, getting us to deal with situations that resemble our views and NEEDS OF EXPERIENCE. We can change our behaviours and drift along, but if there is a part of us that still wants a certain type of response, the best we can do is transmute or change the quality of the experience.
If we need a strong response from everything in life (perhaps Scorpio or Pluto on the horizon taking effect), there can be a shift from a hateful/opposing expectation/response to a deeply transformative and an upliftingly profound one. Both are stimulating and strong experiences, however one may be more preferable in the long run for both our and the whole’s greater good. The core Scorpionic imprint is forever there, however conscious changing of how this energy is utilised changes the whole game.